and today is St. Patrick's day.

i couldn't care less.

i wouldn't have even known if it wasn't for every person i see saying something about it. i don't see the draw to this holiday. i put it in the same category as Boxing Day (for you Canadians), columbus day, and earth day. not to say they aren't special, but it ain't like i circle those days on the calendar. the best holidays are july 4th, christmas, and memorial day. new years and st. pats are very overrated. maybe it's cuz i'm in a pissy mood cuz i have no one to go celebrate with on those days. or maybe it's the other way around; since i don't care to waste time and money in a bar drinking green beer or watching cheesy parades on TV, no one wants to celebrate with me.

i've been a little short on friends lately since i left my other job. see, that's the problem with having lots of friends. you never have enough time for all of them, so most of them end up in the "out of sight, out of mind" category. that's why i prefer a few, close, lifetime friends, because you can call them up out of the blue and pick up where you left off without any weirdness, even after not seeing them or talking for a while. try that with the buddies from work and they're probably gonna think, "what the hell is up with this guy? haven't talked to him for a month and all the sudden he wants to do something? talk about a f**kin' weirdo." --i hate that shit. thus, the friendships forged at eltaday onicsay have pretty much bit the dust, and the new job isn't lending itself to making friends. yeah, i know what you're saying...friends don't have to come from work. but...i dunno...alright, i admit it--i suck at making friends. it's cuz it's so hard to find someone thats worth a shit to hang out with. i'm picky. and i live alone, which makes it harder. and i still don't consider myself to be a true syracuse resident--i don't plan on being here much longer, so why bother? then again, i was saying that almost 2 years ago when i moved here. excuses, excuses...

enough pissing. i'm trying reeelly hard to not do that. thinking happy thawts...

and on the italian front: my unattainable and seemingly imaginary italian pen pal, silvia, is considering coming to the US for an english language course or two. YEE HA! after 10 years of letters, post cards, and emails, i might finally have a chance to meet her, and better yet, she would be here for more than just a vacation! she has assigned me some homework: i've been making calls to syracuse university and my alma mater, cornell, to inquire about their foreign language programs. this would be a dream come true to have her here. it's one of those odd situations where i consider her a close friend, but i've never met her and only spoken on the phone twice (thus, the imaginary feeling.) thru the culture differences and the language barrier, we've found so many similarities in life and often give each other advice on relationships & stuff. i can't wait to finally meet her. that's IF she comes...IF IF IF.

from the transportation department: my truck is falling apart again. this time, within a 24 hour span, the driver's seat belt latch and the inside driver's door handle broke. so not only did i have to hook the seat belt into the center latch, i also had to roll down the window to open the freaking door. the redneck factor was overwhelming, so i ratf*cked the passenger door and seat belt for parts, and in the process, left the passenger door panel off so there's wires & parts & holes & bare metal everywhere. at the moment, any passengers might want to consider alternative transportation, since, in the event of an accident, they would not have a seat belt, could not open the door, or roll down the window. (not that they could open the door anyway after having their body crumpled against the dashboard due to the lack of a seat belt.) this is in addition to the bald tires, eerie wheelhop over bumps, smell of burning oil, persistant engine sputter, and ferocious engine clatter on startup. oh, and gaping rust holes, dents, and peeling paint. quite a machine she is. quite a machine. but at least it isn't like my buddy ingram's buick, which, in his words, "rides like a drunken camel." (actually, now that i think about it, that doesn't sound half bad. must be nice & smooth.)

financial news: i'm broke. selling cars would be great if we had customers. i'm seriously considering another job, only cuz i can't live on bread and water any longer (and because i'm not a natural sleaze.) this month's bills are gonna be a bitch.

from the "she finally did it" department: the ex (and close friend) moved to maryland today. we all had a going away party last friday at dinosaur bbq, followed by Starsky & Hutch, which was better than expected. a year ago, seeing her on the arm of another man at the movies woulda made me puke with rage and jealousy, because it was so hard to keep in mind why we split. now, it's...different. it's surreal. and i'm ok with it. really. it's a relief to have that chapter of my life over with. being friends again is soo much easier, and that's what sucks about her leaving now--another friend has migrated. but it was great hanging out with old friends again, like bunnell, ingram, and becky. unfortunately, anne couldn't make it, and neither could hank and colleen--something about being in the hospital with their first child being born or something. like that's an excuse. (i'm kidding guys, congrats!!!)

what i've been listening to: just bought bob seger's greatest hits, vol. 2. ironically, he just made it into the rock & roll hall of fame. i had no idea he did "shakedown" from beverly hills cop. what a great song. i've been listening to it over and over, making up for not hearing it for like 15 years. i'm still going strong on the pepsi iTunes caps. iTunes is great for finding that stuff you like don't want to buy a whole album to get (such as C+C music factory, the fugees, and eye of the tiger by survivor.) geez, it's like middle school all over again in my apartment! "EVERYBODY DANCE, NOW!" "I'm just a squirrel, tryin to get a nut so move your butt" --ok, that's enough.

sorry for the lack of blarf lately. it's been hectic over my way. and every minute i sit in front of the computer is another minute not spent out in the world, having a life to blarf about.